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"[liedown1], my trief hanukkiah" -Online butch friend

Hello, i'm Allen or something. I've moved around a lot, but for now i reside in Seattle, Washington. The Ravenna Ravine is beautiful.

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Cowen Park/Ravenna Ravine, trees, mountains, weather events, ceiling & standing fans, live music, Autobiography of Red

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my life

Born in Texas, lived in California and Florida too. I don't remember a lot of my life, and got diagnosed with PTSD last year as a result. Or, actually, earlier this year- i'm typing this on December 30th, 2025. It really does feel that far away. When i was 14, i went thrifting and picked up a couple of things that have stayed with me for seven years- a grey sweater with scuffed sleeves & collar that have only gotten more scuffed up, and a brown jacket i wore almost every day for 4 years, includes only for extremely hot weather and a very thin navy (color & army branch) windbreaker i used in sophomore year. I don't have that windbreaker anymore, though. I've slowly retired the brown jacket, replaced with a classy 90s navy blue jacket with a dark green collar, and most recently a gray columbia rain jacket that feels dangerously safe. That's what the brown jacket was, too- safety. I love having a safe clothing item or two in my wardrobe.

trivia

• I run handsoverheads on instagram, a way to atone for my cowardness in photography at shows. I love it, though, the project.
• On my entire backside is a work-in-progress tattoo piece that projects the most visible stars of the Orion constellation onto my body, 1:1. When i lived in the chaparral, i'd go out at night on long, lonely walks around my neighborhood. In a cul-de-sac i'd stare up and see him, my winter brother, at night. I thought this brotherly bond to the constellation (not myth) was a lonely one, until i learned of Dorianne Laux's poem Winter Brother in a magazine i randomly picked up at work. I was truly blown away.
• I share too many experiences and thought processes with Geryon from Autobiography of Red. The first time or two i read it, my hands closed the books without me being consciously aware of their movement. It was a lot to bear and confront at 16.
• I have a crush on Mary Oliver and really enjoy the work of Bruce Springsteen and Patti Smith. My favorite of Patti's right now is Federick, my favorite of Bruce's is most of the Nebraska album.
• I was born without that front tooth.

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